Can't believe another few weeks has passed since my last entry. The long gaps in my entries reflect what's been going on for me...... a lot of PROCRASTINATION..... or that's what it feels like
I rang and spoke to Rita, and she suggested a therapist I used to see whilst in treatment so I have since visited her twice since my last blog entry. This lady is not just professionally qualified she is personally qualified as she has done the "work" I need to do. My GP had originally said she would support me with an application for an extra contractual referral which would be a request to the health authority to pay for this therapy however she has now said that due to changes in mental health services she can only offer me local services. So it's costing me £30 a session plus a mammoth £7.40 to get there and back on the bus ! I don't know how I'm going to pay for it but I am going to find a way. Because I want to get well.
I had a visit to the hospital last week to get my rear end checked as I have had episodes of bleeding which shouldn't happen; the GP said last year it was due to a small "haemorrhoid" caused through straining when going to the loo - feel embarrassed typing this but this is the reality of my chaotic eating. Anyway, had an implement shoved in my rear end and a couple of haemorrhoids "banded" which involved having as it sounds a couple of bands tied around my haemorrhoids to kill the blood supply to make them drop off. This was uncomfortable and left me a strange feeling for days afterwards. Because the inspection wasn't conclusive I am going to have a camera inserted in my rear end to have a look further up. Really really not looking forward to that. Now for anyone reading this who has normal eating habits they would probably go home and think I really need to improve my food intake and they would just do it. But for me and others like me, I still HAD to have that chocolate and those biscuits in the week following my visit to the hospital. Which is INSANITY.
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