I have created this blog to accompany my Foundation Degree project on compulsive eating, something which is a bit of a problem for me. I'm a recovering alcoholic and this time 8 years ago I was in a treatment centre in Burton on Trent. I went in thinking my depression would be resolved, and I would come out slim and happy all in 16 weeks! Needless to say that didn't happen, but what did happen was the start of a journey of change for me which is on going hence this project.
During the past 8 years I have spent time recovering from the first 37 years of my life. What do I mean by that? I mean I have been learning to understand why I was the way I was, why I still continued to behave in the same way after a few months out of treatment (except I was doing it without a drink inside me) and what I could do to change. During this time, food has been my constant companion and as I'm trying to do something about it at the moment, I decided that my next project would be about this problem I have. For my final project on my Foundation Diploma I did my experience of alcohol addiction and I found it beneficial so I have decided to continue using my personal experience for this project.
Recently I have found myself recently glued to TV programmes such as Embarrasing Fat Bodies, A year to save my life, Supersize v Superskinny, Weight Loss Ward. I am shocked sometimes by what I see; I understand how I have put on weight and why I'm not losing it. I am so lucky that I was ready to be helped when I went into treatment for alcoholism because if I hadn't been I could still be going round in that vicious cycle of addiction.
One thing I find frustrating is that some of these people can't leave the house so who is feeding them? I would not go out and buy food for someone who is so fat they can't walk. It would be the same as me going to take alcohol to an alcoholic when I know it's going to kill them (eventually). I just would not do it. But I am now armed with knowledge of my own condition and understand and take action to change things. Whilst I was in the depths of alcohol addiction without any understanding of what was going on, I could not change. I can only think that this is the same for all those people on the programmes mentioned above.
For me now though, I need and want to change my eating. I have known for a few years that I've having food issues in the same way as I did alcohol but I have not been ready or willing to seriously do something about it. I've been looking for miracle cures and answers but I already have some of the knowledge. And that is .... to be continued......
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